When I think back about when I was in middle school and high school, I can't get over how much I have changed! I mean, in middle school I thought I was going to be this great successful artist after I graduated high school. I was such a sweet, innocent kid. Everyone loved me. My family still talked and everyone loved each other. I had my grandma and my great grandma and my aunt. Most importantly, I had my parents together. For the most part they loved each other.
Then switch to my high school years and everything changed! My baby brother was born not breathing, my great grandma died. My grandma died. All of this changed my mom so much. She became bitter and grouchy, so my dad couldn't get along with her anymore. They constantly fought, and eventually divorced. Then I lived with my mom and sister until I convinced my mom to move out and let dad move in the house. There is a good reasoning behind my stupid decision I suppose. My mom had a job that payed a little over minimum wage and she was having trouble paying the bills. Our internet and phone got cut off. Eventually the cable and water was cut off. The power was next. How could we live without all of that? I was scared and worried about everything, so I suggested that my mom move out and get an apartment of her own that was cheaper than the house payment and that she could let dad move in and my sister and I could live with him. He has a really good paying job and has always been able to support us.
So mom moved out and dad moved in. He promised he would not move in any of his girlfriends or anyone until he knew it was serious and they were good people. He was there about two weeks and already had someone move in. At first I thought she was nice and a good person. Slowly her true personality came through, to everyone. She was on drugs, she stole, and she was a habitual liar. She was so fake and she made my life miserable! They broke up a few times, but she came back. Eventually she finally moved out. Then it wasn't even a week I think and he had another woman there. Then she moved her kids in! One was 2 and one was 4. I liked the kids at first, and we all got along. Eventually those kids were so mean and annoying I couldn't stand to come home everyday. Surprisingly I never had any problems with the girlfriend though.
My mom lost her job, and she couldn't pay for her apartment anymore. This is the part where I really regret asking her to move out. She met this guy who I really liked at first. He was cool and nice and everything. Just like my dad's first girlfriend, his true colors started to show through eventually. He treats my mom really bad and cheats on her. He lies to her and everything. My mom got pregnant by him, so now I have a baby brother named Lucas that I love with all of my heart! The thing is, my mom can never get away from this deadbeat guy now because she doesn't want to keep his kid away from him. He doesn't have a job or a car or anything. I really do not like him! He has treated us bad and talked about my sister and I and everything. My mom deserves so much better than him. Since she moved out of the house, she changed so much. She wasn't so grouchy anymore and she seemed happier at first. Now she is miserable and can't get ahead. She's stuck and I can't help her. I really wish I could, but I don't know what to do. She stays with her "boyfriend" and Lucas at some guys house. She says she has everything she needs, I hope she's telling the truth.
After graduating from high school in May, I moved to New Jersey to live with my boyfriend of two and a half years, Chris<3 He is truly a great guy. He makes me feel so special and loved all the time. I've been looking for a job since I moved here, but I haven't got one yet. I've had two interviews and no luck. I think my lack of experience is what the problem is. I have to start somewhere though. I really wish someone would give me a chance.
I have no idea what I want to do with my life in the next couple of years. I've thought about going to culinary school or being a photographer. Lately I've considered being a cosmetologist. School is only around $14,000 and I'll be making about $30,000 when I get a job as a hairdresser so it sounds good to me. I'm just stuck. I have no idea what to do! I guess I'll start applying for jobs again and see if I can get hired somewhere.